| wow...last post was november 2007, 2 years ago.
so anthony deng successfully convinced me to read my old posts on xanga and reminisce about the past.
some things that i found out about myself:
-i was a brat
-i was self centered and an attention seeker
-i was emo for some time lol
i'm actually pretty glad i didn't delete this xanga. i've read over my old posts in the past, but i've never thought i was such a brat haha. i guess if i read this 2 years later, i would feel different, still. the past is the past, but there's no point in burying it and forgetting. i guess it's a good thing i kept this site. i used to be such a writer too haha- i would record everything that i did everyday. reading it again reminds me of all the good and bad times that i've had with different people.
wow come to think of it, it's pretty crazy how people can change so much. all my old friends that i hung out with feel so far away from me. they are all doing their own thing now. some of them are going to college, some of them are still studying art, some of them moved away, some of them are married, some of them are in the military, some of them are drug dealers, some of them are street ministers. and here i am, typing into this 5 year old account from the laptop in my dorm in stonybrook.
it's funny how just a couple hours ago, i was talking to anthony deng about the different "what-ifs" he had during the summer. now that i read my old posts, what if? what if i went to a different college? what if i wasn't a psychology major? what if i stuck with being an art major? what if i moved away? what if i was married? what if i really joined the marines like i intended to in senior year of high school? what if i lived life as i used to? what if i became a drug dealer? what if i hadn't accepted jesus?
things definitely would've been so much different. back then, i was the typical azn gangster. what if god hadn't changed my life? i would still strive to be as azn as possible. i would've joined an azn frat. i would probably be smoking, drinking, doing drugs. i would be a party beast. i'd probably join a gang. hell, i probably would have already suicided from being emo. reading back 5 years, i can clearly see the ways that god had changed me. little by little, all the way up until i am who i am today. god has a great plan for each and every one of us and i will follow that plan until the final moments of my life.
lord, this account is testimony to how you've changed me and my life, how you had done miracles in meticulous ways, how you showed me love even when i have forsakened you, and how you will continue to walk with me for the rest of my life.
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| Hi iLiKePiE2u! It's been 1348 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium?
NO WAY lol
so i finally brough/forced myself to write on xanga again
xanga is soooooooo dead...when i check my subscriptions, most of it is filled only by ming and debra xDDDD
so how is everybody doing?
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| i'm gonna be leaving for hong kong on june 28th and returning on august 13th. probably not gonna be on for a while. gonna miss me?
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| when a kid who has all the toys in the world dies, he is simply dead.
don't set your goal upon something materialistic...set your goal upon something that'll last forever
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| lol xanga is soooo dead...comment if you're still here
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